When the Gift Isn’t Obvious

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I almost said no.

I was invited to something glorious—something beautiful, expansive, an opportunity that could genuinely shift things in my world.

And I almost said no.

Keyword: “almost”

And it wasn’t because I couldn’t. It wasn’t because I shouldn’t.

But because I was caught in the loop again: scanning for what’s missing, what’s off, what’s not “right.”

And this is what I’ve been noticing in myself lately:

Unbeknownst to me... over time, I’ve trained my mind to search for the lack.

The imperfection. The flaw.

It’s sneaky.

It shows up as discernment. Logic. Even “intuition.”

But when I really get honest… sometimes it’s just fear dressed in reason.

And after getting curious & Being with it... here’s what I saw:

What’s missing is always available. AND so is what’s beautiful. So is what’s aligned. So is what’s right.

And when I slowed down—really slowed down—I saw something else:

There is gold here.
So much gold.
Gold that I wouldn’t have seen had I stayed in the habit of scanning for what’s wrong.

I saw how this opportunity, even if it wasn’t “for me” at first glance, actually is for me in ways I couldn’t fully grasp at the surface. Because I believe Spirit delivers exactly what I need, when I need it. God always has my back.

That’s why one of the lines in My Document means so much to me:

I am that God has my back and the odds are stacked in my favour.

It anchors me back to truth.

It reminds me to look for what’s good.
To anticipate it. To find the gift inside the things I almost dismiss.

And sometimes... the opportunity may not even be for me alone. It may be for the person beside me. The one I’m going with. The one who needs the healing, the breakthrough, the joy.

In fact, in giving that to them, I receive too. I receive because I give. And that’s what makes it all sacred.

I’m writing this in advance, knowing you’re probably reading this right in the middle of that very experience I almost turned down.

And I already know—I’ll look back with a full heart and see it: This was exactly where I needed to BE.

So today, I’m sitting in deep gratitude.

Gratitude for the invitations.
For the nudges.
For the moments I say yes, even when I don’t see the full picture yet.

Gratitude for the gold that’s always available... if I’m willing to look.

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Thanks for Being here!

Much Love,

Julian